As you can tell, I am not one of those moms who dread sending my kids to school. I don't mourn the fact that they are growing up. Rather, I celebrate it! I am so excited that my babies are now in grades 4 and 1. I think it's awesome how much they are growing and how independent they are. I feel like I am doing something right when I can send my kids off to school full of confidence and self-assuredness.
Oh yah, and I now get the house to myself. This is also a celebration for me. I love being alone as much as I love being with my kids. I enjoy days of grocery shopping sans kids and baking without hearing, "can I do that?". And then, I love it when 3:10 pm comes and I get to see my handsome boys once again and find out all the wonderful things they did in their day.
However, this fall is a bit different. Now that both boys are in school full time I get to re-create myself. I have been a full time stay at home mom for 9 years now. The only money I have made in these 9 years was a result of me taking care of other people's kids. Actually, that is not entirely true. I have been a certified doula for 4 years now... but that is more like a hobby to me!
Anyhow, now I feel ready to get a job... not one involving kids... but with actual adults. I have no clue what it is like to work beside adults all day. To talk adult talk. To leave my house and go to a job. I am ready for that. Maybe an office job. You know, something involving my anal organizational skills and geeky desire to do administration. Something where I can still be with the kids in the evenings and on weekends. Something part time so I can still have a few days at home to clean, grocery shop and do laundry.
I am also thinking about pastimes. What do I want to do in my spare time? Do I want to learn a new hobby? Do I want to try something new? Who the heck am I after all these years of thinking of everyone else but me?? I have no idea what I am interested in, what my hobbies are, or what my desires are. I put those on hold 9 years ago. Now it's time to find that stuff out again! So, I'm not sure what I will end up doing. But it's kind of cool after all these years to think about me again.
I'll let you know what I come up with! Until then, here are pic of the products of my last 9 years of working DANG HARD for no pay (the payoff of two handsome, amazing boys is well worth it)!!
First day of school!
How awesome they are!
The reason I have so much cleaning to do!
1 comment:
Hi Char, I'm excited for you and to see what you recreate yourself to be. SO fun. I hope you find a perfect job for yourself and that you find some amazing hobbies to tackle. Can't wait to hear about it
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